So yesterday evening, I had the most amazing, wonderful, intense experience.
I spent most of the day in the kitchen, which I haven’t felt like doing for a while, so it was fun.
And one of the things I created was some raw vegan organic homemade chocolate.
And because I was experimenting, I ate quite a few pieces, so I wasn’t entirely surprised when by early evening I started to feel a bit queasy.
Shortly after that, the feeling intensified and I found myself wanting to puke.
Initially I thought it was just the food, but I started to realise that it was actually energy wanting to move.
So I decided to get under the shower – my standard response when I feel nauseous as a result of energy movement.
I stood there under the running water for a few minutes, genuinely expecting to empty the contents of my stomach, but then things shifted. My stomach settled but the energy movement got stronger.
The temperature of the water surged, and the hot water brought me snapping back into full awareness of my body.
I rested my head against the side of the shower and my hands against my legs, and my hands started tingling like crazy.
At first it felt like the normal pins and needles I get in my hands when I’m experiencing strong emotions, but then it got stronger and stronger.
Eventually it was roaring through my hands, and I realised that what I’d thought of my whole life as “pins and needles” was actually intense energy flow. Now I get it.
And this was ten times more pinny and needly than I’d ever felt before.
In fact it was so strong that it forced my hands into claw-like shapes, and there was no way in heck that I could move my fingers out of that position.
At one point I lifted my hands off my legs, and they just stayed exactly the same – roaring, contorted and stuck.
While this was going on I was also staring at the floor of the shower, looking at the patterns in the tiles on the floor of the shower.
They’re laid unevenly, and the thick and thin lines of grout were bothering me. There’s an uneven number of tiles and my logical, rational mind wanted them to be neat.
And it was while I was focusing on this, as a way of staying grounded, that I realised that I could move the tiles around.
I just had to express my will and my intent, and they would move. Nothing more required.
It was as though I suddenly had full access to my power to create, with no resistance.
Once the full significance of this hit me, I madly started running through all the things I’ve had on my “manifestation” list.
It was like, “Right, if I’m all powerful, let’s create everything I’ve ever wanted, right now!”
I even called P over and asked him for ideas, because as wonderful as this was, I wasn’t prepared for it and I kept running out of things to create.
But each desire that I called to mind, I was able to create effortlessly.
The usual worries and sense of limitation were just gone. I couldn’t find them, even when I tried. I was infinitely powerful. No resistance. What an amazing feeling.
I worked my way through everything I could remember, with things occasionally coming back to me as I stood there immersed in this sense of limitlessness and possibility.
After about five minutes or so of this, the feeling started to fade.
The worries and limitations slowly ebbed back, and I felt shaky and weak, absolutely exhausted by the flow of energy and the work I’d just done.
P helped me out of the shower, because I still didn’t have full control of my body. He got me dressed and put me into bed, where I lay trying to absorb the experience I’d just had.
And recall it as well, because it was already beginning to fade, despite having set the intention during it, that I would have access to this feeling at any time.
And I do. I now know that once I had an experience of something, I have a benchmark, a reference point, and I can never “un-experience” it.
And now I have had the experience of unlimited creation. Wow.
I figure that the chocolate was just the trigger. It was of a high enough vibration to set off this chain reaction, and the time was right. Wow.
I look forward to seeing the results of my creations.